I’ve been catching up, slowly but surely, climbing my way through every task I abandoned over the past few months during which school became the focus of my existence.
I finished the pre-apprenticeship electrical program with fantastic marks and a good sense of self, both of which were very hard won. Perhaps harder won than I even realized at the time, considering how absolutely worn out I’ve been feeling since I wrote my last exam 10 days ago. Some times I have difficulty doing anything except sit on the couch with the dog on my lap, even though I’m excited to be out of school. When I think about all the things on my To Do list, I’m simultaneously giddy and appalled. I feel genuine pleasure at accomplishing some of it, but am annoyed that it took me so long.
Case in point: That biscotti lovingly baked by Oats and I back in December? I never mailed it to my family. Instead it sat around for weeks and weeks, until we ate it ourselves. This past week I made a new batch, and it’s going to be in the mail tomorrow morning, and as much as I know it’ll be appreciated, I feel so inept for not having sent it earlier.
Ditto with my 2008 taxes, which I finally submitted on Monday.
Also, the silkscreening job that I said I’d do for my community bike shop in exchange for a massive discount on a gorgeous retro Italian cruiser that I bought from them back in JULY.
Also, Mo’s licensing with the local municipal animal control. We’ve been lying about his age in public for the past few months, because he was beyond the mandatory minimum for being unregistered.
Also, the many many many friends I haven’t seen or talked to since December.
I know I’ll get through it all, but sometimes I get down on myself, and it just feels like a lot.
Sometimes, though, I really do get it right: The day after I finished school, I got down on one knee and asked Oats to marry me. She said yes, of course. More than anything else, thinking of this is what reminds me to take a deep breath, enjoy how good my life can be, and get it all done.